Why do I do this thing called Spiritual Formation?

I was asked this question a couple of weeks ago, not in a negative sense (since the person asking has been part of a men's ministry that looks at transforming the heart), but rather as a point of clarification. The context of the question is that if we, as Christ-followers, are covered by the blood of Jesus does it matter how "transformed" we are? When we stand before God, He will not see our sins rather He will see His Son and the sacrifice Jesus made on the cross. So why do we concern ourself with becoming more like Jesus?

My first response reflected back to what I have been reading in 1 Peter and how living a life that reflects God can silence the ignorant talk of unbeliever. Our transforming life can be used as a witness to those around us. Do I live a life that reflects who I am in Christ? Is their evidence of becoming more like Jesus? Does the way I respond in different circumstances silence the ignorant talk of the unbeliever? A mentor of mine talks of this notion like this, People aren't going to listen to what you have to say unless they see it lived out in your life. How we live our life matters. So we do spiritual formation so that we may be a witness in the world.

As I have pondered on this a while longer a second reason is that it is a matter of obedience to God. In the Old Testament we see that we are to meditate on scripture day and night, we are to draw near to God, we are to listen for that still small voice. In the New Testament we are called to be perfect just as God is perfect, we are to love God and love our neighbor, we are to seek wisdom. All these things are part of spiritual formation. As we meditate on God's word how can we not be transformed. As we draw near and listen to God we gain a greater understanding of who God is and what He wants for our life. As we love others, as we care for the widows and orphans, those who have no voice in society we are transformed through this exchange.

A third reflection on why we do spiritual formation, and for me this is key, is that it draws me in to a closer relationship with God. In order to gain an intimate understanding of God we need to be transformed so that we can better understand who He is. As a new believers we have a certain level of understanding, but as we grow in Christ-likeness our understanding increases. This increased understanding draws us into a deeper relationship with God. As we are then drawn into this deeper relationship, we are better able to reflect God back to the world around us and we are better equipped to carry out the plans God has for our life.

Leaving a Legacy

We spent the last couple of days in Grand Rapids, MN, a place we called home for more than 10 years. It was a fun time, building a house, helping build a church (Grand Rapids Alliance Church), adding to our family, and growing in the Lord. I often wonder what impact I may have had in my time there. I was given a glimpse of the legacy, the mark that I had left on the church we were a part of for so many years. The mark I left that is still going strong today is a Monday morning mens prayer breakfast. It came to be after an elder's retreat in a deer shack in the woods. I was prompted to pray and invite others into this time also. Pastor Randy believes that all the great things that have happened at the church (and there are a lot) is a result of this group of faithful men praying on Monday mornings. Some 15 years later (11 since we have left) there are still a dozen or so men who still get together and pray and God is still at work in this church, reaching Northern Minnesota for God.

I often wonder where my passion for prayer has gone. I often engage in conversational prayer and pondering prayer, but I seem to have lost that desire to pray for those specific things for my church, my work, etc. I need to pray that God my reenergize this area of my life.

Its funny I had been pondering on this the last few weeks and now God has presented me with an answer from a very unexpected place. But a place where this passion once was very strong.

Pondering, Passion, and Procrastination

It has almost been a month since I last blogged. It's not that I have been off-line, but I think the title says it all. I have been pondering a lot. The Trinity, Divine community, educational technology, online learning environments, online community. Work, personal, and doctoral studies seem to be melding together into some sort of synergistic pondering. I will start on one subject that then shifts to a different topic linked together by a common thread. As I talk to people about what I am studying I am getting a lot of positive response from a variety of different people in a number of different fields. At times I wonder what I am doing or perhaps why I am doing it, but then I get encouragement from an unlikely source and I am reenergized to push forward.

That is the pondering and passion parts of the title, but what about procrastination? That is why there haven't been any postings since the end of April. In part I haven't made the time to post, in part I haven't taken the time to refine my ponderings into some sort of coherent idea to post. As I think about it, this blog will continue to be my ponderings on God, life, doctoral studies, etc. and I will be starting a new blog at http://educationaltechnology-bethel.wetpaint.com to continue on in my work related ponderings. Some of my ponderings may be cross posted some certainly won't.