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12 February 2010

A Sense of Dis-somethingness

I feel as though I am in a strange place right now. I am enjoying my sojourn in life, but I have this sense of disconnectedness or restlessness. Maybe it is in part because of the doctoral class I am taking right now with it's questions and reflections I am doing for the class. Maybe it is in part due to my unsettled work situation. Maybe it is God calling me to step out of my current path and jump over to an uncharted path to take on a different ministry challenge. My guess is that it is a combination of all three of these, along with some factors that I have not really considered.

I has originally titled this posting "A Sense of Discontentment" but that is now the feeling I have. I am content in who I am becoming and where God has me now. My contentment is not based in circumstance, rather it is based in my identity in Christ. My restlessness my be more connected to my present circumstances, while my disconnectedness is a result of my current contemplative state of mind.

So what does this all mean? It means that I am in fact as clueless if not more so, than I have been in recent months. It means that I have to "trust in the Lord with my heart...," it means that I need to ask God for wisdom, knowledge, and understanding as I navigate through this time in my life. It means I have to be keenly aware of what is going on around me so I don't miss that "still small voice" of God giving me insight. It means I have to be still and be open to what ever and where ever God is leading me. I have my dreams, but I have to make sure they correspond with where God is directing me at this time in my life.

What things in your life are causing you a sense of dis-somethingness? How are you working at resolving the feeling? What new adventure may be awaiting you? Are you willing to step out and say lets go God? Am I ready to do this?

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